What is purpose? Why was I created? These are questions I often asked myself as a young adult. It really all began over 3 years ago. I was living life as usual. Work, Graduate school, Church on some Wednesdays and most Sundays, dealing with a 4-year relationship with my significant other and an idea of starting a jewelry line. God interrupted my plans and I found out I was pregnant with my first child. I was scared to say the least. A preacher’s daughter pregnant out of wedlock (even though I was 29 years old)? Oh Lord! What will people think? What does God think of me? This goes against everything I was taught my entire life. God gave me a supportive family after I broke the news. I was mentally preparing myself to become a mother. A couple of months into my pregnancy I found out I was having a miscarriage. Going to the doctor seeing no more movement from the baby that was growing inside of me I felt like I did something wrong.
My significant other, family, and friends tried to give me so much comfort and reassurance, but I was heartbroken to say the least. My mind was unstable. It was all I could think about. I was in a deep depression. I blamed myself. How could my body do this to me? Did I not give my baby enough nourishment? Was I too stressed? Was God trying to teach me a lesson? Why did this happen to me? So many questions….I felt so unsure of myself and my purpose.
Fast forward 3 months later, I was having extreme pain in my right leg and had a horrible cough to the point that my breathing pattern was irregular. I still worked for a couple of days on “this bad leg”. Took some medicine and did every home remedy you could of for pain. Heating pad, cold compress. I was calling my sister that’s a nurse non-stop. Finally, a friend of mine made a doctor’s appointment for me. I went for a check-up and got tossed between 2 different doctors to figure out the problem. Come to find out I had blood clots in my heart, lungs, and leg. I would need surgery to remove the blood clots from my heart or I may die. I remember my dad saying to me, “Baby girl, it is time to exercise your faith”. I realized God was putting me through something to see how much I trusted him to bring me out. I knew if I made it through, it was time to exercise my God Givin’ abilities.
I have made it through so many trials and cried so many tears, but I know it all made me strong. God was showing me my purpose. The thing I prayed many years for. I had to be strong to do the things He wants me to do. Telling my story to help others. Sincerely being who I am and living fearlessly with no regrets. Being bold and not too apologetic. I realized never to take life and things for granted. Life can change instantly. Exercise what God has givin’ you. Being thankful for Life.
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WOW! This is simply amazing….So proud of you for stepping out and telling your story. There are so many men and women that needs to read this.
Awesome testimony Tammy of exercising your GOD GIVEN faith and drive to keep going even in the face of adversity. I totally enjoyed reading this and I pray that it encourages someone to STRIVE TOWARDS GREATNESS AND THE GREATER ONE, Christ Jesus.
Thank You for Sharing your Testimony Tammy. I to have struggled with things, these past 5 years. Sometimes even questioning my faith and strength. But you have to Keep God as your Best Friend, throughout the process. I am Proud of how far you have came. And will continue to pray for you during your Journey.